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CANDLE

The glittering snow in the light of the moon
The night’s pouring down from the skies
So gentle and quite and the stars overhead
Like silent and cold cosmic eyes.

So paltry and pale the light in your hands
It shivers with cold in the night
The flame of your candle – it could be a star
It could be so daring and bright.

But you’re sinking your ships
And burning your wharves,
Your bridges, your castles and forts
You let it inside – the fear of life
With its irresistible force.

The fear that had filled all of your thoughts
Shaking off all the stars from your sky,
Put out your candle and ruined your world
And all of your dreams had to die.

It’s so hard to try – just to make an effort –
Break the chains and join the game!
The way-out is here – so far and so near,
But you’ll never see it again.

‘Cause you’ve sunk your ships
And burned all your wharves
And trampled the Hope inside
And you’ve come so paltry
And pale like the flame
Which shivers with cold in the night.





WEREWOLF

I am creeping
Through the lonely sleepless night,
Through the darkness,
Through the piercing wind and cold
I will find you,
I’m the winner of the fight
My time’s coming
And I’ve never been so bold.

Haven’t you heard,
Haven’t you seen
My lonely shadow walking behind you?
I’m your nightmare,
I’m your daydream -
Don’t be afraid when I find you.
Don’t be afraid,
Give me your love
Sealed with a drop of your blood
And you’ll live forever,
Your beauty won’t die,
I’ll be your eternal nightguard.

I’m a werewolf,
I’m a creature of the night
Death and fear -
There is nothing left divine.
You’re a child
Of the purity and light,
But I love you, and I know -
You will be mine.

Haven’t you heard,
Haven’t you seen
My lonely shadow walking behind you?
I’m your nightmare
I’m your daydream
Don’t be afraid when I find you.
Don’t be afraid,
Give me your love
Sealed with the drop of your blood
And you’ll live forever,
Your beauty won’t die,
I’ll be your eternal nightguard.







AUTUMN NIGHT

Frozen city,
Steps of autumn all around
I can feel the breath of winter in the air.
Pale reflections
Of the headlights on the road
Darkened leaves and biting snowflakes everywhere.

Standing on the desert road
Wish tomorrow never came

Now I know,
That all has gone,
But it’s too hard to realize -
Melting in my hands
Slipped through my fingers,
Turned into tears in my eyes
My only dream...
Or is it just rain? -
My hopeless dream...

Yes, I know,
It was an unreal world
Now I see my castles burned and fairies - dead
I’m still trying to escape
From the prison of my thoughts,
But my way is just a circle without end.

Standing on the desert road
I just want it to return

But now I know,
That all has gone,
And it’s too hard to realize.
Melting in my hands
Slipped through my fingers,
Turned into tears in my eyes
My only dream...
Or is it just snow? -
My elusive dream...







GREATEST LIE

Night is flying
Like a noiseless owl on her wings
A strange light in the street is like a spark.
I am peering
At the silhouettes outside
Trying to discern your figure in the dark.
In a second you’ll be in my room
And become so real in my bed
And for some short moments I won’t fear
That I’ll lose the thing I’ve never had.

Say you love me in this fairy night,
Though I know it is the greatest lie.
In my life you’re like a distant star,
So alone in the deserted sky.

Do I still have a right to complain?
Your tender touch is all I’m looking for.
All I need is you, my sweetest pain,
But I can’t, can’t stand it anymore.
Your false kisses, glances full of lie,
Feigned, pretended promises of love
Are illusive, but I do not care -
Ain’t it an illusion - all my life?

Say you love me in this fairy night,
Though I know, it is the greatest lie.
In my life you’re like a distant star,
So alone in the deserted sky.
May be in another Universe
Many other stars are shining bright,
But you’re the only one who makes me live,
When the day is turning to the night.






***

No sound in the darkness –
Deepest quiet
Lonely creeping shadow
In the night
Dark-red drops are falling
On the ground
Rusty stains of blood
Are all around.

The blood’s not mine
I feel no pain
I see no wounds
Where have I been –
What have I done?!

From the mirror
Hanging on the wall
‘Looking with my eyes
Out of my soul
Someone’s face –
Distorted grin of pain
Fading out the cry drowns
In the rain

And someone’s skin
Under my nails
I can’t recall
My victim’s face

I feel no pain
I see no wounds
I see the blood
What have I done ? –
God damn this night!







LIGEIA

Your sky-blue eyes grew dim
Your golden curls
Fall lifeless from your face
Don’t try to scare me
There’s noone there
I nearly hate you
‘Cause your eyes are blue
‘Cause your curls are fair,
‘Cause you aren’t…

I’d better leave you now
Believe, there’s noone there
All the shadows you see
All the whispers you hear
Are just the trick
Of your fevered mind
Oh, I nearly hate you
For your narrow mind,
For your eyes and curls,
For you aren’t…

I brought her a glass of wine…
It’ll calm her down
And make her sleep
It’ll help her forget her fear

The wind slipped into my room
And it touched my skin so gently
Like it cared about me –
The only one in this world
And three brilliant ruby drops
Fell down from somewhere above
Right into her glass of wine
That was the last thing she trank
‘Cause Death didn’t make us wait –
It came like a silent beast
She let me sigh with relief
‘Cause I nearly hated that creature
For her eyes so blue
For her curls so fair
For she wasn’t…

And now I’m sitting beside her
Waiting for morning to come
Vacant starring right at her eyes
Forever closed by Lady of Dark

I saw her skin –
So ghastly pale –
She can’t be alive,
She can’t, she can’t!
I saw her lips in deathly grin –
I saw – she died, she died!
That silent sigh
Can’t come from her
But – damn! – she moves,
She tries to rise!
Or is it the trick of my mind?
She’s still on her bed –
Paler than ever
Bound with eternal
Chains of Death.
But – oh God! – she tries…
She rose!!
She can’t be alive, I’m getting mad!
She still lies on her mourning bed…
I saw her dead,
I know – she died!
But – oh God! – she tries…
She rose!!!

The night came almost to its end
The wind burst again
Into my room
And it let her snow-white shroud…
Let it fall down from her head
It filled with its force her hair
Blacker than jaws of grave
And the eyes of the figure
That stood before me
Slowly opened and stared at me
So black and wild –
They were not to forget
‘Cause they were the eyes of…







DREI WELTFEINDE

Das Pfand fuer die hoechste Weisheit
Scheint dir nicht mehr zu teuer
Nach einem Schluck aus der Quelle
Wirst du nie wieder froh

Drei Kinder deines Wahlsohnes
Drei Feinde des hellen Asgards
Nachkommen des ewigen Boesen
Bringen den Hass in die Welt

Die Schlange schlummert im Meer
Und wartet da auf die Stunde
Wenn sie in dem letzten Kampf
Zum Gegner der Goetter wird

Unerbittliche finstere Tochter
Die Herrin des Nifelheimes
Hat die Gewalt und Aufsicht
Ueber das Totenreich

Der staerkste von allen Feinden
Ist der Gestalt eines Wolfes
Ihn baendigen keine Fesseln
Wenn der Tag des Untergangs kommt

Jetzt siehst du, oh Vater, die Wahrheit –
Der Rauch quellt zu dem Himmel
Die Sonne ist schwarz und duester
Die Erde sinkt langsam ins Meer

Das Pfand fuer die hoechste Weisheit
Scheint dir nicht mehr zu teuer…







***

So schwarz der Schnee
Auf weisser Erde
Die Nacht kriecht durch den Spiegel
'Raus
Die Schatten des Kerzenstummels
Sie tanzen da auf den Waenden
Strecken die Feuerhaende
Aus der Dunkelheit
Zu dem Himmel aus.


Alles, was du einmal
Gewesen warst
Und alles was du
Geworden bist
Gefangen im Rausch der Wirklichkeit
In der Mitte der Welt
Der Decken und Waende...

Fliehe fliehe,
Weg von hier,
Toete die Schatten
Mit zerstochenen Haenden.
Vergiess doch nicht - der schwarze Engel
Schon wartet auf dich,
Schon steht am Ende.

Am Ende des Weges...


Lohnt es sich denn
Dieses Leben zu leben
Lohnt es sich denn
Nach den Schatten zu fliegen
In suessem Meer
Der zaehen Traeume
Koennen wir hoffen und warten
Und lieben


Doch alles, was wir
Gewesen waren
Und alles was wir
Geworden sind
Gefangen im Rausch der Wirklichkeit
In der Mitte der Welt
Der Decken und Waende...

Wir fliehen fliehen,
Weg von hier,
Toeten die Schatten
Mit zerstochenen Haenden.
Vergessen doch nicht - der schwarze Engel
Schon wartet auf uns,
Schon steht am Ende

Am Ende des Weges...

Oder gibt es denn keines?..





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